All Talk and No Action

The last few months have been nothing short of... of...

I don't know of what... !

Maybe a roller coaster ride...maybe something more.

Today, I had some sort of a closure. At least for now.

I have always harbored dreams of pursuing an MBA. Making it big in the corporate world. Then branching out and doing something of my own.

But the last few months had me in a flux. Somehow, this dream of a B School, cracking interviews, getting back to books and aiming for MNC jobs began to lose its sheen.

The more I thought about an MBA and the life thereafter, the more I questioned myself whether this was really what I wanted to do with my life.

Did I really want a job with an MNC?

A job that would require me to give away 10-12 hours a day, maybe travel extensively, lead a very busy life, make lots of contacts and of course, money.

I wanted to pursue an MBA due to the network and the avenues it would open for me. The learning, whatever it maybe, the "take always" from classroom discussions, and a lot more.

But then, I have always been naive.

These are apparently not the reasons why one should be pursuing an MBA for.

The only reason(s) should be - A high paying job and the invisible glass ceiling that exists everywhere which can be easily broken by an MBA.

Well, if I sit down and think about things that I want to do, currently, an MBA doesn't seem to be the way I should be going.

And this is what had made my life tough. Having a dream for ages and then suddenly feeling that I no longer needed to nourish that dream.

Someone who had espoused the MBA cause to friends and family, someone who had always kept a tab on the latest trends in management, that somebody, not being interested in an MBA anymore?

Was I being an idiot by not taking the most coveted route? The most logical path?

What if things didn't turn out as I wanted them to?

I have no answers to these questions since I don't have the comfort of a hindsight.

I have yet to explore the few ideas zooming in and out of my head.

Who knows, I might start feeling the need to re-learn Financial Accounting and Econometrics one year down the line.

Or maybe, I will never feel the need for an MBA again.

All through this, I am very thankful to the most important people in my life - My Parents.

If not for their belief and support, I wouldn't have been able to come to this decision, to take up the unusual things I want to pursue.

Also, all those friends, who listened to my rants and helped by giving sagely advice and sometimes just by being there and listening ! Thanking you wouldn't be a true measure of what I feel. Still, Thank You.

So for now, no more applications to handle, no essays to attend to, no recommendations to be submitted.